this is an emo post.

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i hate myself.i dont know why i chose this at the first place.i wish i knew im gonna screw up this bad.i dont like to call myself stupid,moron,useless.it sounds bad but it just a reality after all.things turned out very bad,and like previous occasion i cried on the inside.no matter how grave was my mistake, tears just wont worth it.it didnt change a thing.i dont know what went wrong.but i admit that with Feskott and Fesni running days before exams got me little carried away and i was one of the active participants involved.i wasn't fully prepared especially during the first week of examination.and god, aku paling tak suka ambik exam bila tak betul2 ready.

AS is in less than 3weeks and im regretting for nothing.many people say just dont bother this pre.your mission is AS not pre.dont let down.it's better if u scored low grades during pre rather than if it happens during the real AS.but what if things didnt change?no i hope it wont and i will never let that.

i wish i could stop what i had started.i got down pretty easy and im messing my own life.could i terminate?even if i say that a hundred times over, it just never the right choice.i just gotta move on and face whatever comes.


life is pretty sucks at the moment.gimme a break.