fear

i've been living in fear for the past few days.or should i say few weeks?nevermind.

this week plans-appointment dentist,spm results,teeth surgery(three days in a row,pergh).starting tomorrow.
all those things real make me scared.dentist is one of my biggest fear fyi.bcuz i had a very bad experience with dentists back in std1.i know it's already 11years ago but i cant take this out of my mind.lingering till now.and i'll be having a surgery to fix my teeth.my dad said the dentist will make me unconcious during the surgery.but that actually make me feel worse.(sampai kasi xsedar mcm dahsyat je).yeah thats what i think.but then i can only eat soft foods like porridge.huhu.if things went as planned,the surgey will be on this friday and our reunion is on sunday(15march).i cant sure if i could make itt.waaaa.kecewaa.cannot eat.it will probably takes 1week plus to heal a bit.

i hope i could undergo the surgery as a lady,a strong girl.not as a kid.crying over little pain.but i need mama by my side.