wuhu

i cant help to stop writing about ktt.maybe not until im away in somewhere.but im too fickle minded.too fragile when ppl condeming my future place.when ppl talk bad things about india, i started to rethink it back whether what im chosing now is right for me or not.but what they are saying are just the common mentality our community have.which i think i used to set it in my mind just like them.
when im already positive about it,ppl start to give the negative sides.
or maybe i just cant see yet the good flipside of that country.

yesterday my opahSS came down and gonna spend few nights at my house.

''nti wani masuk mana?''
''oh masuk yg MARA tu.pastu pegi india''
''pegi india?bukan yg pegi amarika ke england?''
i can tell that opah was very surprised to hear that.see i hate that kind of mentality.like wanna put me down.i hate when i have to live up to ppl's expectations.even i know i wouldnt be able to make it true.
''oh tak.tempat wani tu pegi india.tempat yg pegi uk tu wani tak dpt''
''oh.tak seronok la india.tak boleh mintak ke pegi england?''
''kalau results betul2 bagus boleh la.hmm tp uni india okay.cuma tempat die je la kurang sikit'', im trying to be optimis.to be positive.i dont want the rejection to put me down.
''hurm tp tak syok la nti org tanya doktor dari mana,dari indiaaa''
then we laughed.
i blurted out a bitter laughed.

yesterday i also asked sarah and she said we cant get to choose the uni at india.MARA will give the placement for the students.so im just thinking that it doesnt guarantee for me to get twining prog.and i want it badly.and thats the sole reason why i opt to stay in KTT.

so suddenly i want to reconsider to change my prog.which is SAM.
aha.wtf!