GlaxoSmithKline, i just have to forget you

the first LDK activity that we did during BTN was ta'aruf. there were 10 people in my group. four from KTT, one form Intec, one from KYUEM and the rest were from IMU.

we were ask to draw a family picture and introduced ourselves and the family members.

so when the mood was there, i volunteered to present anything-that-should-be-presented




when i have done with thE typical introduction of my family, i said


'impian saya adalah untuk membahagiakan parents saya'

i dont know why but suddenly i could feel tears started to build up. was it becuase i had to forget my initial ambition and diverging was hard? that i wish i had the freedom. i wanted to rebel but everything forbids me. i don't like being myself. because i just have sooo much words that i can't utter.

then the faci asked

'habis tu selama ni awak tak membahagiakan parents awak la?'

'tak la maksud saya bla bla bla'







i thought it was over. but i havent.