'Head letter?' LOL

i wanted to reply your letter but you went home so fast than i expected. then it gives me no reason to stay anymore i wanted to be back as early as i can once you're off the ground.

i don't know whether i should post it to your house or just reply it here. but things are just too personal to say it here isn't it? i'll keep everything at private then. let us only two know. it's none of the world's business after all. the world doesn't care. the world can sometimes be mean to you.

wasiat made my tears fall endlessly. it's my insecurities. i am afraid of my own insecurities. thank you for your suggestion regarding the shampoo. i'll change it maybe. but one thing for sure, it definitely won't be the same. the pillow is just a non-living creature and it has no feelings. it can't move about. it stays static. i am just afraid i might end up talking alone to the pillow when the feelings of missing you is so overwhelming and unbearable. when i want you so bad to be here. but yeah, that's life. changes are inevitable. i have to stay strong and get myself busy and distracted.

it's either you know me very well or i am being transparent. okay i gotta admit this. you can read my facial expressions and surprisingly you were right most of the time. it's so fun having a friend who can understands you without having to explain. YET, you can't comprehend the reasons behind my actions, sometimes.

i think you're open. open to new things LOL. i don't know if it's anyone else, i am sure they would back off and started cursing me how bad i am. you have been exposed to the world enough and i think that makes you understand me and letting me to have a 'taste' of life. you are great i tell you :) i have no regrets in everything we did (i wanna stop having regrets because it's not good) and i am sorry on your behalf because there's a little remorse and regret in you.

'paling penting sekali' touches the heart and our friendship not gonna end here,i mean in dunia. it gonna continue and stays strong till we meet at Syurga. thanks for reminding me to mujahadah when i wanna so something bad. mujahadah was hard i tell you especially when i am in comfort zone.

i still keep the envelope written the restart button game.remember?