Say hello to goodbye

ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH.

A-levels finally over and now i can sit down for hours and blog properly. 2 years finally came to an end that i can't get myself to reality because time really flies. i remember i was collecting books from the seniors, i was still stuck with AS, stuck with repeating and now i was the one giving out books to the juniors. cleaning the apartment and it was very empty that it echoes now :(

wow, i still remember the first day i set foot into KTT, i came with zero expectations. and now what i've got were beyond any reasonable thoughts and i believe same goes for everyone else. especially after joining the usrah, right mates? a million thanks to my 'kakak' usrah for giving me the push to join. i knew it all along that finally i would definitely came to this.
studies wasn't easy thats for sure. the biggest test when i have to repeat. luckily i wasn't alone and lecturer was being very helpful.

it was such a great pleasure to have Kiki and Mayang as the housemates. i didnt know that i actually love you guys until you guys are gone. until the house felt dull without one of you guys.

the last three months were the greatest memories. i am sorry i might not be able to remember everything we did but at least i can recall more than you do. at least i am not as ignorant as you you do LOL. i've never felt so strong with anyone else before. circle of friends will change as we go on. i know i am not gonna stay with the same person forever. okay i'll bear that in mind. it may be hard at the initial stage but i hope i'll be fine later. i'll try not to shed tears whenever you come into the picture in my head. thank you for everything be it good or bad. it was kinda fun being on the bad side sometimes XD

reshuffling was hard. separating with the clan, going separate ways, losing and making friends but the old ones are always better, adapting, blending in. it was fine eventually.

just that at the very end of our journey, something big happened and it hit us all, hard. i didnt quite get why people were crying the moment the news were released and a few days later, i was sadden by the fact that we're not going to India and the choices left were hard. it wasn't like it was given to you that you only have to pick which country you wanna go. it's a competition, we have to compete to get a place in a university. can you imagine from the day you know you'll be going to India and you have been carrying the fact all along and when you're just less in 3 months to fly, your sponsor said you can't fly. and now you gotta sit for entrance exam and face another interview to secure a place. and it all happened in the middle of A2 so that just add the stress. just to inform, i didn't pass Hradec Kralove entrance exam so that means i am going to RCMP doing twinning prog RCMP-Vinayaka. i hope there's a miracle and something better would happen tomorrow and the follwing day. it's just sad to realize that i'll stay in Malaysia for another 2.5 years. and that provided we pass the cut-off point. *freaks me out*

hope to hear good news from college in August. please don't let us down.

eventhough the tears will dry i can't completely disconnect.