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i wish i could make things right again. it's difficult when we're in the same circle. it was long ago that caused us a different turning point. i keep running away from you but ended up me always meeting you at crossroads. i was and am truly sorry for myself for not being able to make things right again and maybe it's almost impossible to rectify it. now that you snatched my loved one i couldn't help from keeping a greater distance from you. it's like i am creating a silent war with you because it's like we're fighting for the same person. don't know if you ever felt that way.
the air was cold and awkward. the awkward silence beats even harder than anything else inside the soul. i was struggling to get out and break this awkwardness that lies between us. but we're professional we interact when it comes to works but that just it. it was never more than work basis.
i know i let out anger to you that i just said whatever i felt about you that irritates me a lot. whatever that i couldn't take. you were too much. you're extreme. we have a completely different personalities. we're like north poles, always repel when it comes near to each other. you see things at completely different angle that simply i couldn't take. i couldn't even respond to your jokes, your thoughts and even random talkings. it didn't 'click' that way. everything dies quickly.
i remember your first presence when i saw you. it was the same feeling i have now. it didn't change even a tiny bit. i don't like your revealing image caused an eye sore to everyone and to me too. i don't like when she sees you like that. i want to protect her from any bad influences. if you do not love yourself, please have some mercy for us.
i do not know what to do. i can't go and asking her to not talk or come to you. i can't do that. yet i can't even speak to you. i can only sit down and watch you and her laughing and enjoying every moment together.
T.T
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