Failure

It is human's nature to only appreciate what is seen outside. Everyone loves something that is well presented. Try to put yourself in my shoes and see how does it feel.
It runs in my blood that i appreciate anything that is small scaled. Be it group of small people, circle of friends, special friends, small gifts. The point is anything that doesnt involve large group of people. Because when you are in a large group of people, there will be a few people you barely know and these people keep painting a nick on you, literally. When it happens so frequently and i dont know how to act fine because i almost break down. i am not approachable because i will avoid getting in contact. Trying to find a reason to excuse myself. I heard some whisper somthing that is not nice to my ears.
I prefer not to be known by the community, i dont mind at all for not getting a post, i dont mind being a follower. It drains my energy to talk to people, trying to please, to join in a big celebrations.
I just wish someone would just try to understand, and stop forcing and questioning.