sometimes the thought of 'the future' scares me. future as in will i finish my medical school on time, or what if suddenly something happens to me that cause me to be unable to finish what i started. who is going to pay that half a million ringgit? obviously the 2 person i have in mind would be my penjamins, who are my dad and his friend. but then i would definitely be surrounded with guilt for burdening my friend's dad. not that i don't feel any slight guilt for burdening my dad, of course i will but a father would do anything for his kids don't they?
talking about future, as we grow into adulthood, one would definitely come to this turning point of life - marriage. just recently i came to know that a senior who has just graduated, married a man. the problem is the man she married wasn't her fiance. *jengjengjeng* she married other man who one will never thought of. an ustaz and from our investigation, the man age about 38.
back to where the story started, she has been in a relationship for 7 years since college. they both were from the same college. to make it short, they got engaged and just 5 months before the wedding day, the couple broke up. many said it was because of distance and this girl couldn't keep up with her fiance's crazy schedule because the guy is a year older than the girl, so he was already in internship while the girl was in her final year. but that is just our hypothesis because nobody knows why they ended like that. right after the girl went back for good, she got married to this ustaz. and that was 5 months after the broke up. this girl seems happy with her husband now.
isn't this a waste of time dating for 7 years and ended up with different partner? how does it feel to have future plans constructed in your head and eventually it breaks into million pieces? what about the process of moving on and healing of fragile heart? one must always hear people say 'dah tak ada jodoh'
it's so easy to say yet it's very hard and takes a long time to be back normal.
all these scare me. nothing is sure until it's in your hand. but even so, you might have take things which are not yours.
one cannot choose to fall but one can choose whether to fall deep into the trap or just get tripped down the way. which explains me lol.
the power is in your hands.
p/s maaf post macam tergantung tapi macam ni la saya separuh jalan habis idea. lulz
talking about future, as we grow into adulthood, one would definitely come to this turning point of life - marriage. just recently i came to know that a senior who has just graduated, married a man. the problem is the man she married wasn't her fiance. *jengjengjeng* she married other man who one will never thought of. an ustaz and from our investigation, the man age about 38.
back to where the story started, she has been in a relationship for 7 years since college. they both were from the same college. to make it short, they got engaged and just 5 months before the wedding day, the couple broke up. many said it was because of distance and this girl couldn't keep up with her fiance's crazy schedule because the guy is a year older than the girl, so he was already in internship while the girl was in her final year. but that is just our hypothesis because nobody knows why they ended like that. right after the girl went back for good, she got married to this ustaz. and that was 5 months after the broke up. this girl seems happy with her husband now.
isn't this a waste of time dating for 7 years and ended up with different partner? how does it feel to have future plans constructed in your head and eventually it breaks into million pieces? what about the process of moving on and healing of fragile heart? one must always hear people say 'dah tak ada jodoh'
it's so easy to say yet it's very hard and takes a long time to be back normal.
all these scare me. nothing is sure until it's in your hand. but even so, you might have take things which are not yours.
one cannot choose to fall but one can choose whether to fall deep into the trap or just get tripped down the way. which explains me lol.
the power is in your hands.
p/s maaf post macam tergantung tapi macam ni la saya separuh jalan habis idea. lulz
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