i am nervous to actually starts my studies. i am nervous of flying to India. i am afraid i couldn't adapt (i know i can finally adapt but worried if i take too long), i am afraid if i couldn't focus couldn't catch up couldn't understand. i am not ready to face exam pressure. talking about not ready, i know i am forever not ready if i continue living in comfort zone. i am afraid if i get homesick and i couldn't curb it.
Professor Kamarudin Jaalam (KJ) once said during our briefing he said that you cant expect studying overseas to be like your home. everything is nice. everything is comfortable. it is totally different. it is about how you adjust yourself and make yourself better in new places.
i hope i spent my last days in Malaysia well tho i know i didn't do much other than my daily routine. i hope i don't have regrets for things i didn't get to do due to time constrain. with hopes of everyone, my shoulders feel heavy and i have great mission to accomplish in 5 years. oh and that includes looking for boyfie lol. i know i have so much to miss about Malaysia the people the food the attitude the air the environment the KLCC the shopping the street the home the EVERYTHING.
i am going to new places with so many brand new possibilities i hope i could handle it well. malam ni la rasa nak sedih sedihh sayu bila tengok semua benda kat rumah ni.
i have my bags packed (almost done), mind set so here we go. to Belgaum, Karnataka, India.
all i need now are prayers from all of you if i ever crossed your mind. i hope i could pull it thru my first year and at the same time enjoy my time in India. panjang umur kita jumpa di post seterusnya.
ALL IZ WELL
and
BON VOYAGE.
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