Guidance

there were times when i scrolled down my inbox contents, reading texts

it was the time when i was in Malaysia

it all reminded me of home :(

i always think and reminisce the routine i had back home

time when i had no obvious obligation to do

woke up in the afternoon, took bath and had lunch, when out with mama

went out with family and sibs during the weekends

during the night i would spend the night skyping with Nadhirah

even though it was always frustrating

and now,

every single thing remind me of home

things are not getting easier by day

i realize the older we grow things get more serious to handle

everyday there is a lot to read

everyday i get bombarded with informations

yet i know i am not using my time wisely

it need sacrifices

somehow i think it is too impossible to memorize all the joints, grooves, arteries, veins, nerves, bones, muscles, origins, insertions

but the lecturers always say, ''i know it's impossible to remember the names the first time you encounter it. but as read it frequently, you'll remember''

the names come so easy like water flowing from them

i was wow-ed

i still can't find my own rhythm

i am in a mess

my studies are not well organized

i know i havent settled down yet

when i open anatomy book, i am thinking of tons of biochemistry pathways

i want to read both simultaneously if i can

but it wont work

it never work like that

exam is a month away

i don't want to waste so much of that 10%

but i don't know if i could pass

so please come and tell me how. guide me.